You killed me first.

"00.00% progress. good job man."

Instead of feeling offended, I feel I can aknowledge this because it's true.

AND NOW I'M MOVING ON.

So, how do I put this.

My mom is going to leave me father and none if would have happened if I wasn't here.
That doesn't mean it's my fault, but rather, that if I would've been an studious, obedient girl, there would have been no need for them to communicate.

And, yeah, that's the problem. My stepdad can't communicate. This whole thing called discussing we're your supposed to listen and think about what the other person just said to you, it just isn't for him.

( Seriously, what the fuck? )

When they manage to sell the house (which'll take plenty of time) she wants to move to Australia, to live with Granny, hopefully help around for a bit to since Granny has it pretty hard at the moment.

That also means I need to seriously start working on getting out of the house.
Moving out of the country isn't an option for me right now, obviously...

What always strikes me about my old writings on the 'net is that MY ENGLISH IS COMPLETELY INCOMPREHENSIBLE TO CURRENT ME.

JUST LIKE MY HANDRWRITING IN REAL LIFE.

( EVERYONE LOVES LISTS. (stolen from various) )

Not much updates from home. I don't know what to do...
Honestly, I know I'll have to go back someday but at least I can stall!
(In hopes that while I'm away my stepdad might be more open to councelling)...

Thanks for the support back then, lmp+rinkori...

Apparantly someone is STILL reading my LJ through LJfind. Whoever you are, please stop.
It's seriously creeping me out. I haven't written anything that could be of interest to you!

Btw. Anyone going to Operation Reconnect in Amsterdam tomorrow? Or the opening of the Shintaro Kago Exhibition on the 24th? Just curious :>

If the latter, maybe we could meet up :>>>

Edit: Hmm, some time ago there was a discussion on the Stripmakers Forum about manga, and most of the geezers there were pretty open-minded, and yet when one of them has to be a dick about it, it really did offend me on a personal level. Okay, I just spend an hour of my life posting samples of various mangaka's works (Tada Yumi, Takako Shimura, Samura Hiroaki, Daisuke Igarashi, etc...) and he still has the balls to just... put down manga, all on one heap. So rude! This is why we can't have nice things!

To start of with the good news, mai CG idol yukaman (from ttp://manglo.org) LINKS TO MY BLOG!! OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. It is like WHOA because shit I even like her art more then Tokiya/Arma Eater's.

The bad news is I'm moving out of the house for an unknown period of time. My mom's pretty much admitted that there's nothing she can do anymore about the situation with my stepdad---In other words, she's given up. And I'm scared that if I stay here I'm going to assualt him one day and end up in jail.

I want to say "I'm not going to return unless he's open for councelling", but that'd just be adding fuel to the fire.

KOTONOHA IS QUITTING???

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OK I'm going to stop running from work now.

http://syndicated.livejournal.com/bluejamrss/profile

Whoever with a paid account, who made this for me, please stand up so I can give you a hug!

Also, this marks the beginning of Star Ocean : Second Story appreciation week;
Chiri and me will be posting fanart of the series over at Blue Jam and if any of you out there wanna join...

I'm really looking forward to the remake :DDDDD

I-I know that I make at least one of these posts per month and I am really sorry about that! It is because I am extremely wishy-washy (even moreso in real-life).

I promise I will not delete PSD again since it's not like I'm saying goodbye and it makes stalking people harder!

I am moving to Blue Jam.
Currently, the thing I like the most is not knowing anyone there; PSD used to be like this but then I met all you cool people and I worry that I can't post without bothering people.

There's also an RSS feed over at Blue Jam. I admit I don't really know how to use those but, uhhh, someone might find it handy?

A NEW UWE BOLL FILM

"But still when I hear news of a guy being told to get lost after submitting a terrible script of Half Life, or Hideo Kojima saying he'd never let Boll come anywhere near Metal Gear Solid I can't help but shake my head at the people that let him use their material before. I guess they just have absolutely no clue about what makes good cinema or simply don't care about having their franchise named tarnished for some easy cash." :D

Also I revamped my website! If you feel like you deserve a place in the link list (I must've forgotten someone anyways) feel free to comment.

I watched Juno. IT WAS PAINFULLY IRONIC.

( I found the titular character a little bit easier to accept knowing she was going to be a walking cliche. )

Oh, and I finished FFXII the other day. After watching the ending, I couldn't stop thinking about hot BASCHxNOAH+LARSA action and I felt really really guilty about it, BUT I KNOW IT'S SO RIGHT.

( I AM CUTTING THESE VAGUELY SPOILERY PARTS ESPECIALLY FOR YOU, KITSU-SAN. )

ALSO-

- Does anyone now when the new Blade of the Immortal is going to be out???

- I'm thinking of taking some buddhist courses in East Asia over the summer, haha. Inner peace and all that... Hope I've got enough monies though.

I have been doing nothing but play FFXII for the past few days and I have to say that after witnessing a battle in which Balthier dramatically died RIGHT BEFORE reviving Larsa that I now ship Balthier X Larsa (Larsa porno's gotta come from somewhere, right...?)

After forgetting all about it I finally found Maniac Job System from Egoism.

Oh and ummm... I know I promised a month ago, Raita's Megane no Kimochi and Yukimi's "eee".

I think my parents are watching ROOMRAIDERS or DISMISSED right now/WEEP

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH WHY'D I THROW AWAY THE BLACK THREAD??????????????????????????

I just wanted to thank you guys for the support on my last entry! (it's certainly more then my parents are giving me... I mean I know it's only 1 percent but there's still a risk of DYING yknow.)


ohh, I get it now.
THE USERNAME MEME


Also would the creepy stalker who is reading my posts through LJfind 1.quit it 2.say hello.

thanks. I'm going to play FFTA now, WHY ARE THE MOG KNIGHTS SOCUTEUGHIdon'tevenlikemooglesthatmuch.

I've been on the pill for three days now to regulate my hormones (or something) but right it just seems to be getting WORSE ):

Anyway, I went to the hospital on friday.

I don't know if I've ever written about this but a few months ago, I'd been discussing with my cardiologist wether or not I should get operated on my heart. It's nothing serious---

Basically my problem is, is that there appear to be to much connections between the lungs and heart and they sometimes cause my heartbeat to go haywire: 200 beats per second, and it won't stop (usually it goes on for about 5 min. to 3 hours, but it's happened before that it went on for an entire day).

I've tried a lot of exercises against hyperventilating and NOTHING helps.

So the things is, the cardiologist said he'd rather not do the operation unless they've got the whole thing captured on an ECG. Which they finally managed to do on friday.

Hopefully I'll get operated soon :D

from Vera

but this is fucking ART



also if anyone was wondering about that SO2 H doujin Koio Minato did that got him fired over at Tri-Ace, here's a pleasant surprise!

( I supose this kind of thing is suposed to be normal??? )

( Here's some JyuSen fanarting )

Everyone's doing it;

Comment, and I will comment back with a picture of the fictional character that most reminds me of you. [Then post the same in your journal.]

Seriously, comment even if I don't know you that well, IT'S OKAY.

other: Hunter x Hunter is great. Like seriously, great. I love the artwork so much. I was reminded of Blade of The Immortal sometimes for whatever reason.

I'll spam artwork sometime! I WANT TO DRAW FANART ARFGGG. (Especially Hisoka. And Kuroro Lucifer. And Hanzo ETCETCECTETCETC)

Though I'm worried the artwork is going to get worse from now on (I just read volume 12-13 or something right when Gon and Kilua enter the videogame). ...I mean the copying and pasting of panels is kinda gay ):

questionary!

I'm doing this mostly out of curiousity, so, if you're bored, please answer these questions in a reply!
It doesn't matter who you are, I'm still interested.

I ENJOY TL;DR VERY MUCH!

1. When did you start drawing comics? And why?

2. Which artists do you admire the most? (no more then five)

3. For what reasons do you admire these artists?

4. Which works really stuck with you? (and why???)

5. When it comes to comics, what do you wish for in the future?

6.. Anything else you want to say? Reccomendations, what are you reading right now...?

( As for me, I... )

Edit: This might be of interest to some of you! Manga Zombie, written by Udagawa Takeo, was published in Japanese in 1997 by Ohta Shuppan. The book covers a range of thirty-one Japanese manga artists active primarily in the 1960s and 70s. Some of the artists are relatively well-known in the English-speaking world, while others are famous or cult figures only in Japan. However, they are all, in some sense or other, "outsider" artists and figures of the sixties and seventies cultural underground. Most of them spent the bulk of their careers in short-lived magazines oriented towards graphic sex and violence, like Manga Erotopia. Some, however, saw success in more prestigious publications like Garo and mass-circulation mags like Shonen Jump.

Also, reading your guys' comments is really inspiring! THANK YOU SO MUCH.
(I hope to see even more :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD)

If anyone's been wondering what I've been up to lately: here's a quick listing!

I'm super stoked! It feels like my eyes've been opened to the FUN that is drawing comics??? Seems like many things happened in COSMIC order (as my bohemian aunt would say).
I can't seem stop pooping out ideas, it's AWESOME.

( Sketch of Sena in a red hood )

Nu kan ik jullie ook vertellen over het project waar ik het meest enthiousast over ben!
( DeathValley'69 (ranting in dutch only) )

Updated the site with a new background image which isn't old and mouldy, and yesterday with some small lay-out changes, crappy buttons, and some art that was on my pc but hadn't been posted yet.

Unedited version in the gallery

I haven't actually had any painting/color theory classes which comes through in my CG, but I try not to go for a generic color sheme, so.... RAINBOW POOP blargh.

Having a website is motivating but,...
This rant has been made a thousand times already but I miss the days when DA didn't exist and everyone had their own crappy but lovingly taken care of Geocities fanart sites!